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MY LAST WORDS [Oct. 14th, 2004|07:53 pm]
Queer
[mood |hornyHomosexual]
[music |It's Raining Men!]

GUESS WHAT EVERYONE? I realized my true identity... my purpose... myself!
I am a queer with no life. My life revolves around trying to make myself look good by starting as much shit as I can. It doesn't do a lot because people not only don't care what I have to say, they don't care about me either. I am a poser emo kid whose parents sent me away because they can't stand that I'm a moron who does what I do. I'm what you call a wanna-be life ruiner who can't ruin lives. I try but fail. I am going to start loving men because women won't accept me, yes, even Lynn. And when they don't I get emo and attract attention to myself trying to gain affection, but can only get it from fellow poser emo kids who don't really KNOW what tragedy is. I suck.
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(no subject) [Oct. 13th, 2004|10:41 pm]
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EBootleg: 22:32:27) itsmillertime986: what do you want?
(22:32:55) EBootleg: don't be gay
(22:33:04) itsmillertime986: what are you talking about?
(22:33:06) EBootleg: i heard you wre being an asshole
(22:33:12) itsmillertime986: to who?
(22:33:24) EBootleg: like going to raysshowsand trying to be funny and shit
(22:33:26) EBootleg: don't do that
(22:33:39) EBootleg: and tell jimmy that his girlfriend is a mna
(22:33:41) EBootleg: man
(22:33:47) itsmillertime986: shut the hell up dude....i don't even know what your talking about....
(22:33:52) itsmillertime986: i wasn't Being funny
(22:34:00) itsmillertime986: i totally respected ray at his show
(22:34:45) EBootleg: whatever
(22:34:54) itsmillertime986: you weren't even there
(22:34:57) EBootleg: so
(22:34:59) itsmillertime986: don't even try to call me gay
(22:35:04) itsmillertime986: you don't know anything
(22:35:04) EBootleg: HOMO
(22:35:09) EBootleg: QUEER
(22:35:12) itsmillertime986: uh oh..im scared
(22:35:12) EBootleg: QUEEN
(22:35:16) EBootleg: hahahaha
(22:35:19) EBootleg: that's cute
(22:35:40) itsmillertime986: a person in another state called me gay!! aghh!
(22:35:50) itsmillertime986: but anyway.....i don't want to fight with you
(22:35:53) itsmillertime986: there's no point
(22:35:56) EBootleg: well i'll be hoe in time to kick your ass for thanksgiving
(22:35:59) EBootleg: home
(22:36:03) EBootleg: heh heh heh
(22:36:19) itsmillertime986: oh ok...
(22:36:20) itsmillertime986: i can't wait
(22:36:47) EBootleg: good
22:36
(22:36:49) EBootleg: me neither
(22:38:02) EBootleg: did you get it
(22:38:23) tearsofseattle: ....no
(22:38:39) EBootleg: 22:32:27) itsmillertime986: what do you want?
(22:32:55) EBootleg: don't be gay
(22:33:04) itsmillertime986: what are you talking about?
(22:33:06) EBootleg: i heard you wre being an asshole
(22:33:12) itsmillertime986: to who?
(22:33:24) EBootleg: like going to raysshowsand trying to be funny and shit
(22:33:26) EBootleg: don't do that
(22:33:39) EBootleg: and tell jimmy that his girlfriend is a mna
(22:33:41) EBootleg: man
(22:33:47) itsmillertime986: shut the hell up dude....i don't even know what your talking about....
(22:33:52) itsmillertime986: i wasn't Being funny
(22:34:00) itsmillertime986: i totally respected ray at his show
(22:34:45) EBootleg: whatever
(22:34:54) itsmillertime986: you weren't even there
(22:34:57) EBootleg: so
(22:34:59) itsmillertime986: don't even try to call me gay
(22:35:04) itsmillertime986: you don't know anything
(22:35:04) EBootleg: HOMO
(22:35:09) EBootleg: QUEER
(22:35:12) itsmillertime986: uh oh..im scared
(22:35:12) EBootleg: QUEEN
(22:35:16) EBootleg: hahahaha
(22:35:19) EBootleg: that's cute
(22:35:40) itsmillertime986: a person in another state called me gay!! aghh!
(22:35:50) itsmillertime986: but anyway.....i don't want to fight with you
(22:35:53) itsmillertime986: there's no point
(22:35:56) EBootleg: well i'll be hoe in time to kick your ass for thanksgiving
(22:35:59) EBootleg: home
(22:36:03) EBootleg: heh heh heh
(22:36:19) itsmillertime986: oh ok...
(22:36:20) itsmillertime986: i can't wait
(22:36:47) EBootleg: good

here sarah

funny how he gets all defensive and tries to hurt my feelings

HAW HAW have fun burning in hell at pusch ridge
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you call it romance, you're full of shit [Oct. 11th, 2004|06:44 pm]
Queer
[mood |queer]
[music |minor threat *dies*]

k so i skated almost all day today. i have to go back to work on thursday. blah i was all emo last night and it was gay because i want to go home. i watched bio-dome and it was pretty funny. ummmm sarah carter what's your phone curfew because i don't want to call you too late. talked to nick last night finally. i miss you guys. props to phil m. you're such a flower. can't wait to visit dallas at thanksgiving finally. write me letters because i get no mail...that goes to all of you. dave more money coming on friday, the day i get my paycheck. god i am so broke. lets skate as soon as i get back. oh yeah and i don't leave on monday till like 11 pm so i want to go to pusch ridge with you.

jesus loves me, he loves me a bunch
cause he always puts skippy
in my lunch

don't hate me. buh bye
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(no subject) [Oct. 7th, 2004|12:53 pm]
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with nothing better to do, i am going to update. except i said everything that has happened lately yesterday. dave i'm going to the vandals for sure but misha is buying my ticket i think, so; i think i can send you more money. jesus christ dave calm down.

"oh no, it's not one of those museum thingys is it? i had a bad experience once...
*flashback*
"why did the dinosaurs die?"
"because you touch yourself every night..."


heh heh heh.

k bye.
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sir, you can't park your van on the diving board... [Oct. 6th, 2004|07:10 pm]
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[mood |i'm going to sex you up]
[music |minor threat-filler]

blood brothers was saturday. i ended up going with misha and we were the last 2 people they allowed in before they shut the doors. i was dissapointed that they played all their new songs , but they ioened with guitarmy, the best song in the world so everything was alright. i got the new cd and a shirt. after the show they were walking around and i shook all their hands and said a few words.

hmmmm legend has it that the misfits are playing on the 26th. vandals is coming up soon on the 16th and i heard marylin manson is coming to san fran and it's 35 or so. prolly won't go cause it's on a school night, but maybe.

i think i pinched a nerve in my back because it hurts really bad when i lift my right arm. it's wierd because it hurts in back by my right shoulder blade but it also hurts in front on my chest to. gah it sucks but at least i don't have to go to work for a few days.

i've been skating switch for the past 3 days, and i've gotten my switch heelflips back. switch is easy. nollie is hard. there's this awesome dirt gap at my school that vinnie showed me andi think i can do it first try. mmmmmm. i got the anti hero video and it's wicked good even though it's only like 25 minutes. tony trujillo is the jesus christ of the skateboarding world. i've decided that my favorite skaters are billy marks and jon allie. Oh MY GOD i forgot about this but jason adams is on enjoi now. when i saw it i was like wtf? but then i found out that he really did switch which sucks. i wonder what happened. that's gay.

afi covered nine inch nails head like a hold for those of you who don't know and haven't heard it. they also covered just like heaven by the cure and it's really good. speaking of the radio i've been listening to loveline every night lately. i had forgotten how funny that show is. dr. drew and adam carolla are my heros.

i'm officially coming back for thanksgiving on wednesday at 10 pm and leaving monday at 11pm. 5 days bitches. i definantly plan to go and visit dallas like i've been saying i would for the last god knows how many months. that's right, bitch. speaking of bitches i'm rick james.

all with dallas is well. i miss you i miss you i miss you. feel better.

"Snake...yes, i rather like that name...it's very misterious...Snake..."

"hold on, i think i read about this in a book once...
are you sure it was a book? are you sure it wasn't nothing?!
oh yeah huh..."

son i'm going to have to ask you to remove those hams from under you're shirt...
i need and adult, i need an adult!!!
hey wait a minute, you're not a shoplifter, you're just a fat kid. hey jon, he's just a fat kid. hey fatty fat fatty, you wan't some choclate fatso? of course you do because you're a fat kid"

Lois, women are not people. they are creations put on this earth by the lord jesus christ to serve men.

if i wasn't so sure that you're a lesbian, i'd say that you're coming on to me...

quagmire you rat bastard, come near my fence again and i'll have you're head.

k, go away now.....i'm going to do stuff to her.
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my dad always says "cleavland juniour, quit jumpin' on the bed!" ahahahahaha!!!! [Sep. 30th, 2004|10:54 pm]
Queer
[mood |bored, tired, missing dallas]
[music |black flag-tv party]

so i went to the skatepark yesterday. it was very fun until the cops came. i got a 100 dollar ticket for skating without a helmet. it was the gayest thing that has ever happened to me in my life besides getting shipped off. a bunch of kids where arguing with the cops and talking trash to them, and the cops where just standing there like idiots trying to babysit and give out more tickets. homosexual, i'm so freaking pissed but i'm going to fight it in court. i went back later and skated the mini bowl and learned frontside 5-O stals and backside lip stalls. today i threw up after school and stayed home from work. i got a toy machine deck too it's freakin good but it's so small, my feet hang off the edge really far. uhhh i sent dallas's letter finally. i have tommorow off so i plan on going to the skatepark right after school. helmets are gay but i guess i'll wear it for now, a bunch of people are going to go to the next city council meeting and bitch them out about the helmet law and the gay skate tickets. the blood brothers is on saturday and i think i'm going. vandals is soon too, the 16th i think. i can't wait it's going to be so awesome. congrats phil m on the hook up i read about, hope that goes well. C, sorry about your stitches but i recommend that you get up off your ass and skate as soon as possible. nick...just don't die. dave, more money will be on it's way soon and i miss you to freaking death. sarah d...good luck on that date. ray, cheer up emo-screamo kid.

i'm bored...anyone from arizona wanna come over tommorow...DO IT!

i like the drama at school...it's really cute.

i always pass on the grass

and don't forget: Bill Marks is a friend of you Dad

one more thing...in california skateboarding is a crime. so just give up. that's all.

peace love dove to the douches
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(no subject) [Sep. 27th, 2004|12:25 pm]
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[mood |tired of being here]
[music |the distillers-for tonight you're only here to know]

phil c answer your phone. i call you every day.

hives called me. i was disapointed to hear that he drinks these days. blah.

ihaven't been to the skatepark once and it's been a whole week. that is due to me working every day of the week last week and getting off after 9. im tired. and ready to go home.

my paycheck is coming on thursday. with it i will purchase both a new board and hopefully a planeticket to prescott. the bloodbrothers are playing on saturday and it's only 8 bucks. i'm going with avon and this screamo girl from my chemistry class. on wednesday i'm going to the skatepark with josh. mmmmmmm... i haven't skated since that day i updated last. it sucks. i'm going to go get an antihero soon though so that will be...tasty. oh yeah and the candals are coming in like 3 weeks. i'm dying to see them again...FIGHT THE POWER!!!!MOUSTACHE!!!! hey ray do you remeber that?

been talking to dallas. all is well. just waiting to see her for the first time in forever.

yes, ray is right...in my last entry i sounded bored...i am bored. bored of life, bored of this place, bored of waiting to go home, bored of working at the same shitty job. gah. i'm going crazy. all i do is work and go to school. it's just so...boring.

misha i don't hate you. i tried to call you. sorry i missed your calls. blah

nick call me someday if you can find the time. blah it feels like i don't even know you anymore. don't die.

i work today. i'm ready for some good ole fashion time off.

my uncle comes back today. at least now i'll have someone to talk to.

sarah d. haven't talked to you inforever but i haven't had the motivation to call you lately...i've been tired. call me someday.

school is drama. kinda. i didn't know lauren's brother skates. hmmmm perhaps i shall befriend this young boy and make a new skate buddy.

i talked to the kid who did the 15 stair. we're gonna skate in like a month cause he's grounded from his board. yay. i can't wait to skate.

skating on a broken board really is no fun just because i know that if i try the tricks that i want to it will break. it's like being hand cuffed or something. it takes away all your ability to do anything.

k i'm done. this was random and pointless.

i'll see you in a long time.



p.s. billy marks has a mustache now. in the new thrasher there's a massive toy machine interview. i recomend you read it. it's good. k bye now.
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(no subject) [Sep. 20th, 2004|06:27 pm]
Queer
[mood |accomplishedaccomplished]
[music |ramones-somebody put something in my drink]

hmmm
i am both happy and sad right now. i'm happy because i fakie flipped the bump today. it took a lot of trys but i stuck with it and i finally got it. at first i was just messing around and i was like "i wonder if i could fakie ollie this" and then i tried it and did it really easily..so then i starated trying the fakie flip. i also ollied the five stair in front of the movie theatre first try///it was all freaky cause i almost wasted into the bike rack that's right in front of it. i found this awesome four stair/ curb gap but it's right by the steet so someone would probably call the cops if i skated it. the skatepark opens tommorow but i have to work. i'll probably stop by for a little bit after school. gah it seems like skating is the only thing that can kep me away from myself...from thinking about home. oh well, at least it's keeping me busy. school is boring. for the past week all i've done in every class is read the 2 thrasher magazines that dave sent me when i lived in south dakota. dave if you have anymore skate mags you don't want please send them to me...they keep me sane during school. i got the toy machine tour video. it's really good. ed templeton ollies this massive 10 stair double set. plus he can noseblunt just about anything. billy marks is my hero...he's so freakin good. in the video he kipflips into just about ever grind possible onthis six stair rail. it's crazy.

im sad because...well, i don't know. i just wish that i could see dallas. she doesn't believe that i like her still i don't think. meh i guess she has no reason to, i fucked up once so i guess i'm destined to fuck up again. i wish she'd just give me a chance. things are so confusing...college, graduating, all this bullshit. i don't know what i want to be, and i want to go to NAU but i doubt i'll get accepted. the only job i can think of is mailman. that would be so rad. government pay and short hours, national holidays off..either that or a counselor of some sort. i just want a job where i can hang out with people and talk to them and help them with their problems because that seems to be what i'm good at.

blah i used to hate math but this year i'm actually starting to like it. i guess that just goes to show that if you don't have a femenist teacher witha flat face or a whore from new jersey than you can learn just about anything.

vinnie invited me to his birthday party. i felt special. avon came over today and we watched family guy and played halo. it was fun. last week i took josh home and we hung out a little bit. it was fun, he's a cool kid, and he's really nice.

i wrote an english paper about the time that me and phil ran from the cops at lambert through the wash to his house. we ran so fast, my god, that was the fastest i've ever run. it was good times. brought back a lot of memories. you guys are going to waste me when we play skate at lambert cause you know it like the back of your hand..jeez i havent skated that place for so long.

oh yeah lauren g tried to be nice to me at school today and i just flipped her off and walked away. i'm sikc of her bullshit. she's immature and self centered and she needs to grow up. till then she can go to hell for all i care.

i've been gone for 9 1/2 months. only 9 more till i can move home for good. i miss you guys.

happy birthday martin.
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(no subject) [Sep. 19th, 2004|12:12 am]
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[mood |anxious to go home and skate]
[music |your own personal jesus-marylin manson]

coming home for thanksgiving and christmas for sure. got new board... baker...magical. skatepark opens tuesday, can't wait. school=boring. missing especially dave, and also nick and phil. let's skate when i get back. gah i wish things with dallas weren't so...far away. just let me see you for one day and i'll be happy for a year. i miss you. i wish i knew what is going on. call me tommorow(sunday) or monday night anybody. oh yeah i can't get calls after 10 now...gay. send me letters, i haven't gotten mail in years.



don't die before i get to say goodbye. you know,


i love you all.
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(no subject) [Aug. 24th, 2004|09:54 pm]
Queer
[mood |sleezy]
[music |acdc-hells bells]

ok.
my day began at 4:30 a.m. when my uncle woke me up and told me to take him to the airport. it took an hour and on the way back i was hallucinating while listening to AC/Dc on tape. good times if you ask me. then i got home and fell asleep till 2:30, then dragged myself out of bed and went to registration for school. it was gay and i saw a buch of homo's there. most people at that school are...

lauren helped me register because i was very scared...and maxim got jealous that i talked to her. my id picture is going to be awesome because my hair was all mattted and there was drool on my face from when i woke up. i was also wearing an " i love SF" shirt. misha thinks i'm a fag...but she can go suck a fat dick. it turned out that they couldn't register me because my uncle forgot to sign one line. it was gay. so...i went home. and fell asleep. for a long time. then i went to hot topic for the first time in a while with misha, the fag. i almost got a tiger army shirt...but then changed my mind. then i drove to misha's house...where i'm at now. i got a ramones shirt it's bitchin'. school starts in a week. work sucks and i'm tired.

i miss dallas. a lot. perhaps i shall go and visit her some weekend in september. we shall see. i didn't send your letter yet...still looking for an envelope. awww...cheer up. brar. i haven't talked to you in forever. i'll call you soon. i'm rick james bitch. *muah* muthafucka.

peace out gangstas.


oh yeah and phil i hope pima is good. it sounds like it is. and dave...call me. to all else, i send you my love.

missing you from the heart of California,

erik
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